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Bhel,

Hello!!! I know you’ll be surprise about this but no matter how you react on this, this will only serve only one purpose, this maybe a long, long shot…but who knows…maybe this is the right time to say everything and find it in his heart to understand what were said and not said by this letter co’z after this the chance that we’ve seen each other again was going to be the month of December… Bhel I am glad and very much thankful that I’ve meet you (for the friendship, it is already the bonus!) You’re such a nice person in and out, and there’s no doubt why you have so many friends which love you the most of who you are and I want you to know that I’m one of them now! And I’m sorry for that! Yes, I was a silent spectator in your life. I was the one who love you profoundly although it is very important to me the friendship that we had but you know I didn’t wish this feelings that I had for you…but I can’t tolerate this feelings, actually I really hate this feelings it’s very hard for me, I really fell in love with you, How I wished I didn’t fall for your sweet smile, your soft voice and witty lines… how got to this place where I am now, I can’t explain, every night before my day ends my last thoughts are of you, even when I am with my friends, there had been times that I asked myself why is this happening? No matter how I try to teach my heart it still longs for you, you seemed to have melted all my defences and sanity as well! I am a funny and very jolly person 75% all of them maybe the others are all after I’ve learned what life is…maybe its all about to handle with much care and less care. I was a friend of yours and that all you wanted for me ever was. You said you didn’t want to ruin the special bond that we had by committing to something more than a friendship, but in the end I’m still here taking everything and risk everything although there were no chances at all but still hoping…Sometimes, I just wish you were one of those girls who just take the longest time to decide about anything. Someone I can suspend my hopes for; wishing that maybe, just maybe, at the end of everything, you’ll choose me, but I know your not that kind of woman, I know for the others or maybe for you it is a corny act by a person like me to do things like this.. But this is me.. I don’t know why I am so determined to be your man and to win to your heart maybe the reason why is I Love You… I’m sorry Bhel for doing this, but this is the only and the best way that I can express my feelings to say the words that I want to say even this is only a piece of paper but it still gives me strength to express everything.. I said that I let the time decide… yes Time others say is the best healer of all, I’m just about to believe it, fate, though, has a way of going through it in a shortcut. Everyday I get clues from the small things that come my way…I’ve learned to accept that I probably want, is not meant to be. Gradually the hatred subsides, the pain becomes bearable, and slowly, hope rises from within, like the morning sun, just like what I feel for you I LOVE YOU BHEL I’m so happy for what is happening right now even that you know that I have this feelings for you, your still my friend and I’m still your friend but a friend that loves you solemnly take care always and God bless…..

Love lots, Cris

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(to gab, oo nga no?) aba ayus to ah. pinag combine lahat ng mga sulat dito? pero sige hayaan na natin to. mukhang nakapulot ng aral. imitation is the best form of flattery nga diba. pero ugags to ah. di ko napansin. sensya na. busy – ed

To: You Who Was Remembered

From: he who was forgotten

AYANG,
I know you’ll be surprise about this but no matter how you react on this, this will only serve only one purpose! I am glad and very much thankful na nakilala kita,(yong friendship, bonus na yon!) You’re such a nice person in and out, at di nakakapagtaka na maramin ang nagmamahal sayo! I want you to know that I’m one of them now! And I’m so sorry for that! di ko naman sinasadya eh! Mahalaga sakin ang friendship na meron tayo ngayon kaya lang di ko na kaya e-tolerate ang nararamdaman ko! I hate this feeling! nahihirapan ako! Yang, I feel in love with you…there had been times that I asked my self (bakit ganyan ka?) you seemed to have melted all my defenses and sanity as well! I am serious in life, spiritually, mentally…emotionally 75% nalang siguro after all I’ve learned what life is…it’s about to handle with much care and less care. I’m always dreaming na sana nandyan ako sa tabi mo masaya ka man o malungkot at inaalagan ka kapag may sakit ka. Maysado ka kasing sakitin e! you just don’t know kung gaano ako nag-aalala pag nalaman ko na hindi ka OK. I love the whole you yang, anemic, hikain, siponin, sumpongin at kung anu-ano pa, I appreciate you being like that kasi ikaw yon e and it completes you! You just don’t know how much I wanted to take care of you. I’m not expecting any return, I know where to put my self! sobra sobra na nga yong friendship eh! masakit man isipin pero kailangan tanggapin…basta, whatever will happen nandito parin ako para sayo wether you like it or not…GOD bless!!!

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                                                                            ALWAYS,
                                                                               gab

THIS MAY BE A LONG SHOT……BUT WHO KNOWS…….MAYBE THE RIGHT PERSON WILL COME ACROSS THIS LETTER AND FIND IT IN HIS HEART TO UNDERSTAND WHAT WERE SAID AND NOT SAID IN MY LETTER

some times i lay awake in bed thinking of the love i lost. and then again i ask myself, how could i lose something that never became mine to begin with?

yes, i was a silent spectator in your life. i was the one who loved you profoundly but you took me seriously. i was a friend and that all i ever WAS. you said you didn’t want to ruin the special bond that we had by committing to something more than friendship. but in the end we lost everything we had even the friendship.

how i wished i didn’t fall for your sweet smile, your soft touch and your witty lines. how got to this place where i am know, i can’t explain. but i can still feel the pain. every night before my day ends my last thoughts are of you, even when i am with someone new.

no matter how i try to teach my heart to forget, it still longs for that old familiar voice.

years have passed and the distance between us continued to broaden, until our paths once again crossed. fate played a nasty trick on me by leading me back to finding you.

we met, and what seemed to be an innocent reunion of friends turned out to be a terrifying test of self control. you knew i was weak, you knew i could succumb to your innuendos. but i had to turn away……tried so hard to turn away. you just do not realize how difficult it was to take every step away from you that night, after feeling your touch, after your kiss.

how else was i to go on with my life with the memoir you left with me. haven’t you had enough? how long will you keep my heart bonded, chained and locked up?

you may not realize it but, not being able to love you makes me incapable of ever loving at all. and you will never really know how much you can be loved until you let me show you how much i do.

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ano ba kasi pinaggagawa nyo.. pag wala na, iwas na! hehe — ed

alam kong marami kang naging babae bago ako, pero nakita ko yung sobrang laking pagbabago mo magmula nung nagkakilala tayo at nung minahal mo ko. wala ako pake kahit na may nag-date at medyo may nangyari pa sa inyo ng friend ko (kung di dahil sakanya, hindi tayo magkakakilala) ang mahalaga ay mahal natin ang isa’t isa at nagbago kana. 5 months na tayo..at counting until forever. mahal na mahal kita. tandaan mo sana na ikaw lang nasa puso ko kahit minsan nagaaway tayo.

mahal na mahal kita.

akire

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ahem. babaero. nagbago. dabest. maswerte ka dude.

Ode To One In Slumber

Sleep well, my love
While I think of you tonight
Sleep well, my beloved

Do not dream of me
Just for tonight
Cast me off from your memory
And pretend you’ve forgotten
We ever did meet

Forget, beyond the space,
Beyond the abyss between our bodies,
I lie here waiting, sleepless, listless
Yet patient still

As I imagine the shape of your face
And its warmth upon my fingers
Pretend you do not feel anything
Not the roughness of my palms
Nor the quivering in my veins

Pretend to close your eyes
To all that you feel inside
Pretend you are not scared of the dark
Pretend you do not need me
Pretend you are not holding my hand

Sleep well, my love
While I lie here, waiting
Sleep well, my beloved

But when morning comes
To tuck you in a blanket of light
Wake up, dear love,
And remember to remember

Remember the one who stayed with you
All through this night of forgetfulness
Remember the one who never let you go
The one who held on to you for dear life
Remember me who laid with you, beside you
All this time, waiting

And I will pretend that you never forgot me
That you dreamt of me at night
That I had you all my life.

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by jude gitamondoc.

hi…musta na mahal ko? Sna ok lang, sorry ulit ha? miss na kita lam mo ba yun? matutulog na ako dapat maaga kaso naiisip pa kita and the things that happened kanina…At least we got a glimpse of what we are when we’re angry or nagtatampo or whatever…Aaminin ko sayo, madali ako magalit or mainis at madalas nagtataas ako ng boses, ganun ako as a person, pero mabilis mawala galit ko, isang oras lang mga ganun wala na. Nakita lang kita umiiyak gusto na kita yakapin agad at nagsisisi na ko sa ginawa ko…Sinabi ko sa sarili ko na dapat ibahin kita at pakikitungo ko sayo…I realized din na dapat iniisip nga kita at ndi lang ako lang sa LAHAT ng bagay, including yun alam mo na

Sorry if I was so insensitive

This early dapat maayos natin mga bagay na ganito para wala tayong pag aawayan, ayaw ko talaga nag aaway tayo by any means, gusto ko masaya lang tayo at lagi nag lalambingan kahit alam ko na imposible yun, gusto ko maging masaya tayo most of the time. We are, for now, just borrowing time so gusto ko na we make the most out of it.

I know mahal mo si e***e at mahal ko rin si c****e but I know na mahal na rin kita ng sobra hindi ko na alam kung saan na yung line na naghahati between you and her…In a span of just weeks na nakasama kita is just unbelievable, I’ve never been happier, just your smile and your voice is enough to melt my heart away, totoo talaga, mahal talaga kita, everything in my mind & body tells me so…alam ko maling mali dahil may pamilya na ako at may asawa ka na pero it’s just one of those things na hindi napipigilan, no matter how smart you are or strong you may be…I mean it’s there and you feel it and you want to do it cause it makes you happy, at least in my case that’s the way it is

I know marami pa tayong dadaanan that will ultimately test our so called “love” for each other. It’s like we’re growing a tree and building a dam at the same time…Will the tree that we call our love be strong enough to stand when the winds of the storm come lashing on it?!? Or can our dam that we built with our affection for each other withstand the pressure of the raging floodwaters? All these things are bound to happen and we will at some point have to face them, both the storm and the flood All we can do now while it’s still early is to take care of our tree the best way we can and to strengthen our dam the best way possible…

I love you C******, so much now…

(wag na po reply mahal, alam nya pw ko dito…)

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waw. patindi ng patindi tong mga natatanggap nating letters. kinakabahan ako sa mga nakaw nyong sandali. -ed.

Para Sayo,

Hindi ko alm kung pano ako magsisismula pasensya na nahihirapan na kase ako talaga sa feelings ko para sayo.
I try to stop naman kaso everytime na ginagawa ko lalo ako nahihirapan. Mali ang gawin ko yun una may commitment na ako,ganun ka din. Pangalawa, we’re friends baka nga pag nalaman mo 2 masira na friendship natin. Nabahiran ba!!.. Ewan ko ba, hindi ka naman magulo pero you rock my world, Pare!! and i hate it.. Ang tanga ko para umasa at mangarap na minsan maging tayo na alam ko namang imposibleng mangyari. Parang ano?.. Langit at lupa na kahit kelan hindi pwedeng magsama.. Hehe.. Corny,ok lang totoo naman eh. And last reason,we’re both in same sex… Kagermz..! Kaya imposible diba? Mali sa paningin ng lahat ng tao kasalanan pang malaki sa Diyos. Pero hindi naman po talaga ako umaasa o ang naghihintay. Tama na sakin yung sinabi ko sayo if wat nararamdaman ko. How i wish nga na sana mabasa mo 2,so you will know. But.. Sana nakaalis na ko para hindi naman kahiya-hiya. Hindi ko maintindihan if hindi talaga obvious sakin o talagang grabe ka kamanhid. If hindi mo naman 2 mabasa ok din lang. Im happy looking at you everyday or taking a glimpse and everytime you smile at me. It makes my day complete.
I wish you’re happiness. Hope you understand me. Take care always..

-blue-

Hello Lolita,

Just had some thoughts i wanted to share with you Sweetheart. We have had some interestingly tough times with communications lately…hehehe. We are of different worlds you & i………and we are both very brave for fighting through this. This is expected. I have not been completely honest with you this last week or so. I have not been feeling well, but did not want to worry you. Its nothing serious……just mental exhaustion. We are both dealing with so much in our lives right now.

I have to come to an understanding about somethings….one, is that no matter how much i love you, and no matter how much i care for you, and want to protect you from pain and saddness………i now realize that thier are just somethings you and i must go through ourselves. I will suffer greatly while you are in the hospital….by not being able to see & be with you, this, i cannot help but to feel…..i am in love with you. And i also know that you also will be suffering greatly while in the hospital, not with just your physical pain….but also the pain of not being able to see me & have me there with you…..after all, you are in love with me.

All i can tell you Lolita, is that i love you, ” un-conditionally”……its that simple….

i can tell you that i care for you….its that simple….

that i will worry about you….its that simple….

that i will be here for you at all times…..its that simple

that i will NEVER leave you….its that simple

that you will never have a lonely night….its that simple

that i will be with you forever….its that simple

that i will never hurt you….its that simple

that i will never dissapoint you…..its that simple

that you all be my only lover….its that simple

that you will ALWAYS be my best friend…its that simple

that i will always protect you….its that simple

that i will always trust you….its that simple

that you can always trust me….its that simple

that you will always come first….its that simple

that i will always love your family…its that simple

that i will never lie to you….its that simple

that i will always share with you…its that simple

that i will always pray for you….its that simple

that i will always pray with you….its that simple

that i will always decide with you….its that simple

that i will be with you in 70 days…its that simple

that i will spend my first night with you….its that simple

that i will always be gentle towards you…its that simple

that i will always “make love” to you….its that simple

that i WILL MARRY YOU….its   that simple                                                               that i will “COLLECT” everyone of my 15,000  kisses….its that simple

and that i will always be proud of you….its that simple

and that i will ALWAYS Honor you….its that simple

and that i will always respect you….its that simple

that i will teach you of many pleasures….its that simple

and Lou, I will ALWAYS be your HERO……its that simple

………What is not simple, is to not not be with you….it is not simple to miss you

Everything is going to be just fine Lolita, My Lady. Your surgury will become part of the past, and the lonely-ness we now feel will never be in the future. We must trust in our love that we both feel for each other, and trust God in his wisdom in bringing us together so we could test this love. WE cannot let each other down, and we sure cannot let God down. These 70 days will soon be like the 70 days that have allready passed…..they will be gone, and we will meet at the airport in Manila, or we will meet at Linns’ home….and our new life will begain………Lolita…???…..its that simple

You will always be my Beautiful Lady, i will wait to hear from you at all times….and i will trust in God that you will not be sad, and that you know that i will always be here for you, and that i will always be yours. I am very sorry for our lack of communications we have experianced. This is not anyones fault…..no one is to blame ……we are just 2 people who are Madley in love with each other, and want to be with each other more that anything in the world. We are both lonely for each other, and we are both a little scared…………

……………..and we both Love each other, it’s really very Simple. You will be in my every thought of every moment Lolita….and i will visit you often in my Dreams. And when you get out of the Hospital…..i will be right here, i will NEVER leave you..

your Billy

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