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remember the forgotten

Tuesday, October 21st, 2008

To: You Who Was Remembered

We were sitting in a bench beside that old building. The sun was hiding in the clouds, the sky’s raiment is gray. I was holding your hand. I can still remember how soft your hands were, despite the chores you’ve been doing everyday. I was holding your hand, but I’m not sure if you understand why I do. Perhaps to you it was an assurance of the promise I made years back. For me though, it meant that you’ll be alright when I’m gone.

I was going to leave you. I was saying goodbye.

I was looking at your face. You are beautiful. Your smile was so sweet, your lips were trying to hide something, perhaps the sadness looming in your heart. I was looking in your eyes. Your eyes were tumultuous. Perhaps as a reflection of your heart. Perhaps your heart understood what my hands were trying to tell. Your smile may hide the sorrow, but your eyes can’t hide the truth.

It was a year ago.

I can still remember your words. “Why can’t you see right through me?”. Didn’t I see you, or you just misunderstood me? I was seeing right through you, but you never understood me. I never vocalized what I felt, what’s inside me. I only used actions. My actions confirmed what i felt towards you. My actions were louder than the waves in the seashore on a windy day.

I hope you have moved on.

From: he who was forgotten

gab for ayang

Tuesday, October 21st, 2008

AYANG,
I know you’ll be surprise about this but no matter how you react on this, this will only serve only one purpose! I am glad and very much thankful na nakilala kita,(yong friendship, bonus na yon!) You’re such a nice person in and out, at di nakakapagtaka na maramin ang nagmamahal sayo! I want you to know that I’m one of them now! And I’m so sorry for that! di ko naman sinasadya eh! Mahalaga sakin ang friendship na meron tayo ngayon kaya lang di ko na kaya e-tolerate ang nararamdaman ko! I hate this feeling! nahihirapan ako! Yang, I feel in love with you…there had been times that I asked my self (bakit ganyan ka?) you seemed to have melted all my defenses and sanity as well! I am serious in life, spiritually, mentally…emotionally 75% nalang siguro after all I’ve learned what life is…it’s about to handle with much care and less care. I’m always dreaming na sana nandyan ako sa tabi mo masaya ka man o malungkot at inaalagan ka kapag may sakit ka. Maysado ka kasing sakitin e! you just don’t know kung gaano ako nag-aalala pag nalaman ko na hindi ka OK. I love the whole you yang, anemic, hikain, siponin, sumpongin at kung anu-ano pa, I appreciate you being like that kasi ikaw yon e and it completes you! You just don’t know how much I wanted to take care of you. I’m not expecting any return, I know where to put my self! sobra sobra na nga yong friendship eh! masakit man isipin pero kailangan tanggapin…basta, whatever will happen nandito parin ako para sayo wether you like it or not…GOD bless!!!

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                                                                            ALWAYS,
                                                                               gab