kate moss
Friday, September 12th, 2008THIS MAY BE A LONG SHOT……BUT WHO KNOWS…….MAYBE THE RIGHT PERSON WILL COME ACROSS THIS LETTER AND FIND IT IN HIS HEART TO UNDERSTAND WHAT WERE SAID AND NOT SAID IN MY LETTER
some times i lay awake in bed thinking of the love i lost. and then again i ask myself, how could i lose something that never became mine to begin with?
yes, i was a silent spectator in your life. i was the one who loved you profoundly but you took me seriously. i was a friend and that all i ever WAS. you said you didn’t want to ruin the special bond that we had by committing to something more than friendship. but in the end we lost everything we had even the friendship.
how i wished i didn’t fall for your sweet smile, your soft touch and your witty lines. how got to this place where i am know, i can’t explain. but i can still feel the pain. every night before my day ends my last thoughts are of you, even when i am with someone new.
no matter how i try to teach my heart to forget, it still longs for that old familiar voice.
years have passed and the distance between us continued to broaden, until our paths once again crossed. fate played a nasty trick on me by leading me back to finding you.
we met, and what seemed to be an innocent reunion of friends turned out to be a terrifying test of self control. you knew i was weak, you knew i could succumb to your innuendos. but i had to turn away……tried so hard to turn away. you just do not realize how difficult it was to take every step away from you that night, after feeling your touch, after your kiss.
how else was i to go on with my life with the memoir you left with me. haven’t you had enough? how long will you keep my heart bonded, chained and locked up?
you may not realize it but, not being able to love you makes me incapable of ever loving at all. and you will never really know how much you can be loved until you let me show you how much i do.
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ano ba kasi pinaggagawa nyo.. pag wala na, iwas na! hehe — ed
